Your art, Your Instrument, Your Piece, And Peace β€οΈβœŒπŸΎοΈ

What better way to #promote #peace than with a post expressing just that (and #streetart!!πŸ˜„).

A few weeks ago, before the busiest workweek in life ever (πŸ˜‚), I randomly ran up on some dude and said, “Bro! Why are you all up in the way covering the photo of the art?!” Just kidding, but I actually did introduce myself to @mybuddiesmic (member of #PeacePunx), and had a great conversation about real #artists and the streets and how I respected what he was doing. Here I am showing my appreciation. Keep on rockin’ in the free world-no matter what your instrument may be πŸ™‚ #blogger #writer #streetphotography #Tempe #millave #downtownTempe #phoenix #arizona #localartists #music #rocknroll #style #HippieLove #blackhippy #photography

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There is no light like the first light of spring

   Everyone has wondered if he his up there at some point. Whether you are educated, uneducated, big or small, brown or yellow; you get the picture. Lol. 

Anyway, what if it was all real all of a sudden? As real as a postcard of Disneyland. One that you have never seen, but you dream of it-therefore, you know what it looks like. 

The first time you went, after years and years upon years of just looking at it in your mind, you now find yourself there-standing in front of it: in all its majesty like Thanksgiving dinner. πŸ™‚ Those times when you were never able to touch it might come into mind. Maybe even bring a tear to your eye? 

How else could I explain? Picture this: you come to look at the Christmas tree on the morning of the 25th, but Santa didn’t bring you your gift. But then, all of sudden, you see it in the corner. You swore it wasn’t there before in the corner where you see it now, but surely as you can see, its there!!! He DID remember! 

Getting it yet?

Well, whatever that special feeling-which all kids seem to understand for some reason, is a sensation akin to magic. Not vodoo magic. Not drugs. Not sex. Not imaginary. Nothing fake. You are totally sober, but you just have this amazing feeling that you just can’t….wait I can. Only those who have felt this way will know. 

The feeling of being completely happy and in love. 

Some people think it doesn’t exist. Some have wounds from attempted muggings from thieving, rat-faced, criminals who only strike at the heart. Unfortunately, those things happen, and it doesn’t take much to find a victim, if you want to see them. Sometimes, I try to pretend I don’t see them (I know, I feel guilty though y’all). 

But “what if?” 

What if love was real? What if no one could explain it to you-because its impossible-but also because its something best felt & experienced 

 , as opposed to a lengthy, exhausting verbal diatribe. 

As surely as you see couples holding hands, and babies being pushed in their strollers by doting mothers-you know love exists; there it sits, just waiting for you to look at it as it hangs on the wall. So clearly painted, no one could mistake it. Like the sky. The clouds. The unfathomable size of the universe. 

When your God is this big, you’re so small in his presence that you cease to be a person anymore; somehow you know you are still there, but everywhere you look, you see light just like yourself. So much that you get lost, but light is always right where it is supposed to be.πŸ™ŒπŸΎ

Seven Rings InspirationΒ 

Seven Rings Inspiration  
  
I am going to work my ass off. “I can’t stop from goin’ in”; it’s as if I was on steroids or something!! Not my cup of tea, but I do drink-see that thang in the bottom right hand corner? Yeah, that’s it! “Sippin’ out my cup? Hell nooooo don’t you taste that. πŸ’― percent chance I done doped up and laced that.”πŸ˜‚ Actually though, its just Kool-Aid flavor enhancer. It makes for a killer rehydrating beverage after a 5 am workout. Like today. Gotta appreciate today. Every moment. Won’t stop until my “left and right hand Robert Hory”. One ❀️ #Future #SevenRings #EVOL #album #music #hiphop #rap #art #poetry #writing #blogger #fashion #fashionblogger #style #styleblogger #personalstyle #eyeglasses by #WarbyParker #shirt #tshirt #silk #and #cotton by #johnelliotco also #denim #jeans #tattoos #tattoo #inked #ink #tats #dermal #piercings #nosering #piercing #jewelry #accessories #docmartens #oxford #bluesuede #redbottoms 

My haiku today from the Phoenix Art Museum☺️

Felt like a kid again today! HahahaπŸ˜„ How much better would this world be if we just took the time to laugh, read, write, and enjoy art together. 

The green chalk is special (my favorite color!πŸ˜€), so I feel like it was kind of a sign. Father stretched my hands today. πŸ™‚  

 

Giulio Romano inspiration

This new life of seriously chasing my dreams-after years and years of failure-sometimes is kind of scary. I’ve lived a long time trying to accommodate the expectations of others; feeling insecure, anxiety, sometimes feeling not good enough, hoping, waiting for something to make the feelings go away; thinking that if I said all the right things and did all the right things, I would somehow not feel depressed.

It wasn’t until I stopped caring and realized I should only be one thing-truly authentic-that freed me from I decided living my life controlled by fear of any kind. This was when I really started to feel free. A moment where the sky opened above me, and I kept my gaze upward-knowing that this is much better than living with it fixed to the ground. I started to give myself credit for my accomplishments-because no one else will-and you need to build yourself up when you have people trying to bring you down, or when you give it your all and get nothing in return.

Its a beautiful feeling to come back with a vengeance. Out of defeat and into victory; but going back to what I said earlier, it is still scary sometimes. There is something wired in us to care what other people think, and I think sometimes it can be limiting-limit creativity, expression, and the ability to truly live free. 

I don’t know why, but this painting made me think of all these things, why art is so important, and what kind of masterpieces can be created when channeling all that energy into creating something. In my own way, I took that inspiration and dressed myself in it. I’m still growing. Still learning, but I get closer to victory every day. πŸ™ŒπŸΎ 

 

Heart in the openΒ 

The heart is so many things. So versatile. It sits enclosed comfortably nestled in my chest and somewhat protected by a cage of bones; still, its so full of life and its rhythm pumps, beats, drums, and speaks reacting to the world outside as if it had eyes. 

I’m trying to keep mine protected. Safe. But its so hard. I expose it, extend my hand of friendship, share it with a stranger; I do it hoping that they might do the same. Often though, it is met with cold weather and the wind of a blizzard after stepping out of the corridor and into the open. Like skin healing itself after brushing up against a surface that is too abrasive, it gets callouses, because it somehow knows it must toughen itself be prepared for when it gets hurt again. Inevitable as it is, its something that never gets used to. 

With each hurt, every disappointment, broken promise, shunned embrace, and day passed without its warmth being returned, it continues to grow and prepare itself for the day where it will find a companion; two hearts beating together to the same rythm, in sync, protecting, and loving each other-even when the weather is cold. 

High And Low; Sacred And Profane

“Death Rides A Horse” song by Ennio Morricone

I woke up this morning and immediately thought of whether I could come up with anything to write today. There was a fear there; a fear that was taught to me by my mom: the “Fear Of God”. My mind rushed back to when I was 10 years old, and my brother and I were sitting at the dining table. My mom was teaching us. I sat there thinking. After combing through the glut of thoughts of video games and comic books, I randomly thought to ask a question. I knew not to blurt it out though. “Try and get in in when she grasps for my breath John!” my brain yelled out to me. You see, getting a word in with my mom can sometimes prove a difficult task. Wait! Oh shit! There’s my opening!

“So does that mean being afraid or scared of him?”, I asked.

She responded gently, “No son. It means respect.”

With that concept and abstract notion of respect I rose out of bed and went to take my medicine. My mind still in kind of a post-sleep haze, I went to grab my iPhone, and I summoned a playlist that I could snort or swallow and get my day going.

I started to think of Clint Eastwood. Fistfull Of Dollars. Movies my dad loved and made sure to share that love with me. I thought of my dad, and I sitting inside on a relaxing, golden and rust colored Sunday afternoon out in the middle of nowhere in Vail, Arizona watching, “Good The Bad And The Ugly”. To be reminded of that once again, I put on some of the songs.


Ahhhh. So much better. πŸ™‚

Now, back to the story.πŸ˜€ I proceeded to get dressed, hop in the car, and take off onto the raceway in front of my apartment complex (yes, I’m still in an apartment complex because I have had to move 4 times in the past few years just to keep my job, get promoted, survive, and all while there is a recession going on that seriously hurt our generations’ upward mobility). As I was lost in a haze of music, my phone rang at 7:20 am on a Saturday morning. Some might consider that a tad early; I am one of those freaking people. Lol. Anyway, its one of those calls where you gotta press “5”, so I begin to converse with my captured brother.

I can tell he is hiding something from me. He’s not paying attention to me. He says things like, “I love you”, but they come across cold, indifferent, and disingenuous. I know something is the matter, but no one broaches the subject, which actually would have done some good-like a whale coming up for a gasp of air. My emotions could best be described by Kanye West’s “Real Friends”.

 

“I hate when a nigga text you like, “what’s up, fam, oh you good?”
You say, “I’m good” then great, next day they ask you for somethin’

 

So now I get to start my day with my heart stinging a little. A mix of missing someone. It tastes like a smoothie. One where you take a blender and mix up emotions like nostalgia, happiness, sadness, depression, and joy-whereupon you then select the “grind” setting beginning the high pitched tortorous screaming sounds that vacillate back and forth between that and an irritating screech on the chalboard; then it all settles down in complete peace at the end-like a night so dark outside in a neighborhood with no lights and you look up at the sky and can see all the stars. There is a soft breeze washing over everything, and there is no sound.

Complete silence.

Now mix those feelings, that phone call, and the smoothie I brought up from before; as Jay-Z said, “You are now dealing with one smart black boy.” In other words, that is what went into this photo attached to this piece of writing here, and it describes perfectly what I’m feeling at this moment, and what I wanted to express; that is the mixing of high and low; like the Michelangelo exhibit I saw last week: a collection of pieces that were titled “Sacred and Profane”. Like all my sins mixed with my repenting soul. Still, sometimes I punish myself with guilt when I think of my brother. Its hard to enjoy things and be happy when those you love are so far from you and are struggling. So I had to put it in my writing, and I had to put it in my clothes: the mixing of high & low; high fashion with the street and the desert. Its an impossible mission, but failing towards expressing it perfectly feels so good. Its almost like there is another dichotomy of high & low again coming to me again: something that seems bad at first when you fall on your face, but its so rewarding to get back up again.

I think its a sign.πŸ™ŒπŸΎ

Yves Saint Laurent oversized plaid shirt in blue and black tartan plaid cotton; John Elliot Co “The Cast 2” jeans in zinc color; 4 year old John Varvatos boots

Recto plan for the Church Of San Giovanni dei Florentini in Rome (1559-1560)

“Sacred And Profane” by Michelangelo.

The Life Of PaoloΒ 

I had no idea that “Paolo” is the same name as “Paul” in English. Interesting fact, and something I attained knowledge of while being glued to Facebook and Instagram for the past week. It feels to me that this is an unprecedented time for art, being that, it is much easier to access it with the Internet; this brings about a never beforehad opportunity to have unlimited access to amazing art from around the world. I’ve made a personal decision in my time outside of work (and also the gymπŸ˜„) to try and only read and watch something unless it has some sort of artistic value. Instagram has been incredible for me in consolidating so many amazing photographs, paintings, sculptures, designs, and the list goes on and on…but I don’t know. Is it just me, or is this a great time for people who love art? I really think that it is, and I hope you are enjoying it in some way. It wasn’t too long ago that my people, and many others, didn’t have any way at all to access any of this stuff. For that, I am very thankful. 

And who do I thank? Well, it just happens to be Easter Sunday, and I must thank he who for this holiday is celebrated. Blessings to all; no matter what your religious background. In my heart (and I think in yours too), I think you pray for this violence against religions to stop the same as I do. Maybe an end to the terrorist attacks shocking us in places where our very peace is underattack. Rest in peace to those lost in Brussels and in all the other places in the world we don’t hear about. 

Still, I can see. The sun is before me. I could feel in my soul a new life. Underneath all these images beats a heart of love, and the post I’m sharing below-with that same heart beating, pounding even, underneath the surface-I share with you. When you imagine the Spring breeze, enjoying the kiss of the sunrays, holding your loved ones, savoring a delicious meal, remembering someone’s birth into this world, listening to your favorite song and feeling happy that you are lost in a state of euphoria; its at these moments, where the feelings you experience make it undeniable, that the world is beautiful. We know this, but still a lot of it is beyond our total understanding. What I post below, has love that is beyond all understanding, and this is the only way I can express the supreme highest level of beauty and art; something, I feel, which is the same as love. Here is what I wrote (a poem-I think😊) inspired by this quote from an ancient book: 

“Although man can forget God or reject him, He never ceases to call every man to seek him, so as to find life and happiness.” πŸ™πŸΎ

My poem: 

Always there when you call. Always there when you need help. Always there when you messed up. Always there when you hated yourself. Always there when you lost. Always there when you were depressed. Always there when you cried. Always there when you lost someone you loved. Always there when you needed protection. Always there. He has all ways and IS always. 

He wants you to live the best life: “The Life Of Paolo”. 

Dedicated to Johnny J

This picture right here…..this makes me feel a lot of things. I could go so many ways, but since I can only choose one, and I’m not DJ Quik, I’m going to make a choice, and I’ll just have to hope and pray that it is the right one. It seems like often we have to make these kinds of decisions in life. 

To start out, I’ll ask a question. Have any of you had a dear friend? Someone that you loved more than life itself and your mother and all your dreams rolled into one? If that feeling has ever gripped you before, it still has its hold on you-because it is for life, and its the kind of embrace that writes love’s signature across your forehead anytime you are touched by it. Its the love I have for a brother. Its the love I have for my sisters. My brother. Brothers. Plural actually. πŸ™‚ The kind I pray to Christ that I will be able to extend to those around me, so that I won’t dissapoint those who came before me, because as you already know, hearts are underattack nowadays, and more often than not, surrounded by cold weather. Nothing against cold weather-I’m actually a fan of it, but not when it doesn’t involve snowboarding, and neither does it involve anything but aggravatingly being the kind of weather that slowly freezes you as you are in the airport; and everyone is just a stranger and there is no love around and you are alone. The same distinct cold that loneliness brings. Actually, it feels like they are nearly one in the same. 

Back to the picture. I love this picture. It makes me also think of a close friend. Once we were so close, it seemed like nothing could come between us. We were like family, but then, things started to happen. Bad things. And that friend started doing things, which would in turn, end up being things that would ruin my thing. And I had to let go because you can’t let someone drive you to do the wrong thing. I’ve already let Spike Lee down enough. I’d much rather do right. The thing that is. πŸ™‚

But it also makes me feel incredibly happy. Happy that we do get those moments. The one’s when you are with those you love, and in that moment, you realize you don’t need anything else. The sun is beaming sending its warm breath your way, and you can bask under it like a light waterfall. The breeze playfully touches your face and engages in its own game of hide & seek, and laughter surrounds you everytime it tags you “it” and runs off again. 

Man! All that from a picture huh? Yes. Because there are many layers to what sometimes looks on the surface as if it was something to just be brushed aside, looked down upon, and called ghetto. Those same layers, left misunderstood, have resulted in shots being fired into the heart of an innocent, and which is also an attack on innocence, and a stab in the back of justice, and a life that is treated like its garbage-like it doesnt matter.

The only thing left to do is relax, and to just let the music play. Once you feel that vibe, and that funk starts up, you won’t stop until you get enough of it. Thank God it keeps on going and we have soul and we have music. Listen to it here: 

Love. 

 

Offensive or art?Β 

“Definition Of A Thug Nigga” http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=AJ60jOFpM60 #2pac #tupacshakur #Rap #music #hiphop 
I’ll start out by making it exceptionally clear that I-just little old me-is NOT the authority on the answer to this question. After all, its YOU. 

That’s right. Indulge me for just a moment. Is it possible that two people can look at the same painting and walk away taking something away that is completely different? Different experience. Different meaning. In other words, viewing the same masterpiece, and somehow materializing a totally different version of the image beamed to their eyes from the combustible interaction of their synapses and neurons zigzagging the highway of their enigmatic minds? 

Since we don’t even completely understand how the human mind functions, although we know a lot, we can’t rule out the possibility that the answer is “yes”. In fact, amongst our everyday communication, this is no uncommon occurence. It reappears out of nowhere every time we take one’s meaning to mean something else entirely. Being misunderstood. 

Misunderstanding one another seems to, unfortunately, be in fashion today. Fox News takes what this person says, twists it up,and  flings it out at the rabid animals tearing each other apart for the first bite. MSNBC takes another one and launches it past the bleachers. One person speaks. Says something about the Oscars. Does a dance in the endzone. Performs a dance in black leather at the Super Bowl. World explodes. Twitter’s tweeters tweet sharply pinned barbs and aim for the throat. Useless and unneccsary blood is spilt. Still no understanding. 

Take the word “nigga” for example. A favorite artist, poet, and musician of mine-Tupac Shakur-comes to mind as someone who was unashamed in his use of the word and convinction in expressing his art. One of his songs particularly struck me, with respect to the ability of words, often in the form of art, to strike two dispartate conclusions as to their meaning. This is why I put this song at the beginning of this post.

So, a little bit of history on this song. It was first featured on the “Poetic Justice” soundtrack back in 1993. It was produced by Warren G and Pac. Later on, it was released on “R U Still Down”- Pac’s first posthumous release-courtesy of his mother, Afeni Shakur. More on this later. The album would go on to sell over 4 million copies (4X platinum). This release would follow with 4 more releases.

If you heard the song, it starts out with a voice sample of a young lady saying defiantly, “No one is closing me out of my business.” The song’s composer and lyrcist goes on to open the song, “I play the cards I was given. Thank God I’m still living.” Then he says he has to arm himself with a 9 millimeter pistol in his own neighborhood, in case some of the young criminals in the neighborhood attempt to accost him. The song continues with the tale of someone in a rough neighborhood, trying to survive, and overcoming the obstacles to this survival. Something that we all know is a human right. The right to pursue life, happiness, and sustain oneself. What really struck me was the statement, “I put that on my moms! Word to the motherfuc***g trigger. Before I go broke, I’ll be a drug dealer. My definition of a thug nigga.” 

Often people hear that word, and they cringe. They might argue over whether people have a right to say it. Some say its profane. Or it should be banned. Or it is tacky. Lowclass. Ghetto. Offensive. 

What the artist meant with this term-definition of a thug nigga-was misunderstood by a lot of people. These people all had one thing in common. They had never actually been in the situation described in the song. But to the people who knew, they could feel in their hearts what he meant. It is something every man and woman has a built-in drive and desire for; and that is to do whatever it takes to survive with the best resources available to him. This same imagery, of the “hand I was dealt” that he refers to, is a universal image. The definition universal along with it. Someone who is impoverished, who climbs out from under that poverty, dodging the snapping claws of the hostile crabs they are surrounded by…THAT is a person who personifies the strength of the human spirit. Bravery. Courage. That person deserves respect. That person came from nothing to something. That person is the definition. 
The story ends with this. The artist of this song would be tragically murdered-gunned down on the Las Vegas strip. Due to his forethought and prudence, his mother would be taken care of, financially speaking, for LIFE. Don’t we all want to do that for our loved ones? It’s touching that he was able to accomplish this-coming from poverty-and left his mother, who was the dearest person in the world to him, with an unforgettable reminder of his love for her. That’s what he meant. That is the meaning of the defi tion of a thug nigga.  


 

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